Good Morning

It is a good morning! The sun is shining, I had a great day with my peanut butter yesterday! We ventured to Lake Geneva for a few hours and had a blast. I did my reading, journaling, and talked to my husband for more than 15 mins which was nice since he is out of town. I got up this morning and when E went down for her first nap I was VERY productive in a VERY short period of time. I washed bottles, swept part of the downstairs, stocked diaper and wipes downstairs, changed the laundry, called my gram, filled the dishwasher, cleaned up the living room and dining room that looked like a tornado had gone through, cleaned the high chair, and after I write this I am going to mop the kitchen. Fun. But I am feeling so much better, chipper actually. Which is kind of nice. I have been praying and talking to God more than ever and I think that is helping. We are leaving for Seattle on Wednesday and flying is NOT something that I do for fun. When I get nervous about it I try to talk to God and remind myself that he knows my plan and my aniexty doesn't help anyone out. It stresses me out, stresses Ryan out, and I'm sure my heavenly Father doesn't like to be doubted in his plan for me. So...that is my day so far and it is only 8am. I like being an early bird. There is nothing like the birds chirping to remind me that it is summer and life is good!

Journal

That is what this blog is going to be from now on...a journal to write down my crazy thoughts. =)
I have been in kind of a funk lately, I had a very early miscarriage last month and I didn't think that it affected me. I think I was wrong. I haven't cared about myself much lately, eating horrible, not working out, gaining weight and generally not caring. Well I care, but not enough to do anything about it. So I was at the docs office yesterday and I brought up my concerns with him. He is great! He told me how great I am doing and that I am only human to be stressed out with a baby at home, losing a pregnancy, going back and forth between moving and not moving, etc.
He gave me a list of things to accomplish at least 4/7 days a week:
15 mins of motivational reading: any suggestions would be great!
15 mins of adult only convo
Journal/Pray/Meditate
30 mins of exercise even if I have to drag both feet
A date with my husband at least once a month
Do what I love at least once a week: for me that is taking pictures of doing an art project
sleep 6-8 hours only: I was sleeping sometimes 10, I guess that works the opposite way
So....my point is this is my journal. I don't care to physically write. =)
Today is a good day so far. I slept exactly 7 hours and I feel pretty refreshed. I did my reading. But I have to work on getting over the anxiety that I have of all the things I have to do.
Maybe I should make a list it will help sort out my thoughts
*clean up the desk in front of me
*enpty the trash
*switch over the laundry
*vaccuum upstairs
*clean upstairs bath
*put Ella's clothes away
*start to pack for trip next week
*sweep and mop floors downstairs
*dust
*wash bottles
I don't know, maybe this is making me more overwhelmed. It will all be there tomorrow, and the next day and the next day. Right now Ihave to decide how I am going to exercise today.

I am working out tomorrow a.m.!