Good Morning

It is a good morning! The sun is shining, I had a great day with my peanut butter yesterday! We ventured to Lake Geneva for a few hours and had a blast. I did my reading, journaling, and talked to my husband for more than 15 mins which was nice since he is out of town. I got up this morning and when E went down for her first nap I was VERY productive in a VERY short period of time. I washed bottles, swept part of the downstairs, stocked diaper and wipes downstairs, changed the laundry, called my gram, filled the dishwasher, cleaned up the living room and dining room that looked like a tornado had gone through, cleaned the high chair, and after I write this I am going to mop the kitchen. Fun. But I am feeling so much better, chipper actually. Which is kind of nice. I have been praying and talking to God more than ever and I think that is helping. We are leaving for Seattle on Wednesday and flying is NOT something that I do for fun. When I get nervous about it I try to talk to God and remind myself that he knows my plan and my aniexty doesn't help anyone out. It stresses me out, stresses Ryan out, and I'm sure my heavenly Father doesn't like to be doubted in his plan for me. So...that is my day so far and it is only 8am. I like being an early bird. There is nothing like the birds chirping to remind me that it is summer and life is good!

Journal

That is what this blog is going to be from now on...a journal to write down my crazy thoughts. =)
I have been in kind of a funk lately, I had a very early miscarriage last month and I didn't think that it affected me. I think I was wrong. I haven't cared about myself much lately, eating horrible, not working out, gaining weight and generally not caring. Well I care, but not enough to do anything about it. So I was at the docs office yesterday and I brought up my concerns with him. He is great! He told me how great I am doing and that I am only human to be stressed out with a baby at home, losing a pregnancy, going back and forth between moving and not moving, etc.
He gave me a list of things to accomplish at least 4/7 days a week:
15 mins of motivational reading: any suggestions would be great!
15 mins of adult only convo
Journal/Pray/Meditate
30 mins of exercise even if I have to drag both feet
A date with my husband at least once a month
Do what I love at least once a week: for me that is taking pictures of doing an art project
sleep 6-8 hours only: I was sleeping sometimes 10, I guess that works the opposite way
So....my point is this is my journal. I don't care to physically write. =)
Today is a good day so far. I slept exactly 7 hours and I feel pretty refreshed. I did my reading. But I have to work on getting over the anxiety that I have of all the things I have to do.
Maybe I should make a list it will help sort out my thoughts
*clean up the desk in front of me
*enpty the trash
*switch over the laundry
*vaccuum upstairs
*clean upstairs bath
*put Ella's clothes away
*start to pack for trip next week
*sweep and mop floors downstairs
*dust
*wash bottles
I don't know, maybe this is making me more overwhelmed. It will all be there tomorrow, and the next day and the next day. Right now Ihave to decide how I am going to exercise today.

I am working out tomorrow a.m.!

Day 1

I am back. I have had a rough few days of not having ANY motivation. I have stared at my video everyday but just didn't have the self discipline to put it in and do it.
I put it on my list of things to do today and I did it first. I had to get it out of the way! SO back to Level 1 I went. I will probably head to Level 2 tomorrow. If you are still reading this please feel free to leave words of encouragement or your own success stories of staying on a good work out regimen! Thanks!
Breakfast- Life cereal -220 cals

Well yesterday was a BUST!

The day was kind of weird, I woke up and had my cereal but I just kept putting more and more in past the 3/4 cup that the serving size suggested. So that pretty much threw my day off....once I get off I don't get back on for the day. I ate a mcflurry at Mcdonalds(small), sweet potatoe fries, a panini, teddy grams, etc....It was bad food and work out day all together. I did go for a bike ride with my hubby and sweet girl though. It was small but it was something. I didn't realize how many hills our neighborhood had.Today is a new day!Breakfast- Life cereal- 220 cal, we are headed to swimming and I am out of coffee at home so I am going to get one at McD's it is 240 cal. Not as bad as I thought actually for as big as it is.

sooo hungry...

I am so hungry all the time. But I am pretty much sticking to it. I say pretty much because I dont know what my calories for dinner were...
breakfast-cereal and coffee- 350 cal
lunch- apple/chx salad at Panera- 520, whole wheat baquette- 140 (I didnt think the salad would have so many calories)
snack- granola bar- 120 cal
dinner- cheeseburger, bun, asparagus (yum!)
Workout- Level 3

I don't even know what day...

I don't know what day I am on as far as the Shred goes. Something around 30...idk. But I am feeling better about myself today. I ate great yesterday, around 1400 calories. This morning I got up and did my video, still kicking my bootie! I will post a new pic on Friday.
Breakfast- Cereal (230 cal), coffee w/ creamer (120 cal)
Snack- granola bar =100 cal
Lunch- 1/2 turkey sandwhich- 260 cal
Snack- ice cream cone(150 cal- SO worth it!), carrots and ranch (120 cal)
Dinner- whole turkey sandwhich= 380 cal, 2/3 cup corn=120 cal
Snack-1 Tblspoon smart choice p.butter- 100 cal
Total= 1,580... a bit more than I would have liked even though I was pretty much hungry ALL day. still am.

Ewwww

I am NOT happy with what I see in the mirror. You know what mirror it is that I really hate is Ryan's sunglasses, everytime we are driving around and he looks at me I can see myself in his glasses and I HATE what I see. My face looks huge. I thought I was doing good but my eating has REALLY been slipping and being gone the last two weekends I have not worked out for 6 of the last 14 days! I want to like what I see when I look in his glasses. =) Thankfully he likes what he sees. But I need to work on what I see!
I am going to start paying attention to portion sizes...starting with breakfast which sure was something when I measured out my cereal....I usually fill the bowl and the actual portion size is about 1/4 of that. whoops!
Breakfast- 1 cup shredded wheat= 230 cal, large coffee with 3.5 Tbl spoons of creamer= 100 cal ( I guess I will learn to like my coffee with ALOT less creamer)
Workout- I did it! Level 3 kicked my butt all over again. That is what happens when you quite doing it every day!
Lunch- 1/2 sandwhich, turkey=50 cal, bread=120 cal, cheese=60cal, yogurt=100 cal
snack=nonfat sugarfree vanilla latte =70 cal, ice cream cone-150 cal (all from McDonalds)
Dinner-medium stuffed green pepper (I dont know the calories), large glass of milk
I am hungry.

Out of Town

We traveled home to IN yesterday for my brothers graduation which is tomorrow. I have not worked out but I have been trying to watch my food portions.....will be back to the Shred on Monday!

Workin out at 9pm

I can't believe it, I went all day and I was just going to skip today because my mom is in town and we headed out this morning to do some garage saleing! I got some awesome stuff btw!
SO I went about my day thinking I was skipin out but I was just getting ready to go to bed and I thought....Haley, go put your stuff on and get your work out in! SO...I did! I am glad that I did! IT feels really good! Now I am off to shower and bed! :yawn:
Breakfast-oatmeal with a little b.sugar and walnuts, coffee and non fat creamer
Lunch-special k bar(200 cal), 1/2 turkey sandwhich, yogurt..... I say lunch but this was all spread out through like a 5 hour time span
Snack -apple and p.butter
Dinner- 2/3 cup of brown rice (180 cal), a few pieces of italian sausage and veggies, very fillling not very many calories

Day 22

I REALLY REALLY REALLY had to make myself work out this morning. I started cleaning to get out of it. That is something! But I did, I just put my stuff on, put the kid down for a nap and did it! Now that I am done, I am so glad that I did. Everyday gets harder, I have to keep pushing myself. But I am really proud that I have done it this long. I keep thinking of this summer and how I would really love to wear a two piece again. So that is my goal= a 2 piece swimsuit!
Breakfast-cereal, coffee with fat free creamer =)
Snack-granola bar
Lunch-turkey sandwhich on a bun, cherrio snack pack-I ate the whole bag, it was around 300 calories
Dinner-my Momma is here and we ordered out...Marios sandwhiches! I had total 1 half of a sliced beef sandwhich and mojo's
Those of you reading this probably are thinking...lady, you don't know how to eat healthy and I know. I wake up every morning and think that I will do better...the foods are not the healthiest but I am eating A LOT less than I used to. I used to snack all day. So that is a start right?

I'm Back!

I didn't give up or quite...I went camping! We had a wonderful weekend! I didn't eat great but I didn't completly give up on working out. I got up early on Saturday and I went for a run. If you know me, you would know that is SO not me. But it was great, I worked up a sweat and got a little "me" time. Sunday we went for a 3 hour hike in the beautiful Penninsula State Park. Here are some pics of our food and hike....

I got up this morning and did my video. I also did it with Ryan on Friday, he says it wasn't that hard...but I think he is just trying to be a macho man. =) I should be on day 24 but since I didn't do it for 3 days I am putting myself on day 21.

Breakfast- Cereal, coffee...going to get sugar free creamer today....I really need to step up the eating healthier deal.
Lunch-english muffin with smart balance butter and p.b., yogurt, string cheese

Dinner- blue cheeseburger and fries- we went out.

Holy Moly level 3

WOW, I tried level 3 today of the Shred, I am on day 18 so I thought I should give it a shot!
I am going to be bikini ready in no time with that level! WHEW.!!!! It rocked. I have never sweat so much in a workout! I heart Jillian!
Breakfast- coffee and cereal

Day 17

Started out with my video at 6:45 am. Welcome to Motherhood. =) It seems like I workout earlier and earlier because the more I put it off the more I don't want to do it.
Breakfast- Life cereal, water...so far...coffee is a brewin!
Lunch-1/2 turkey sandwhich, yogurt, later I had 1/2 a mcchicken from mcd's
Dinner-small chx breast, corn, 1 large scoop of choc chip cookie dough (we had guests and had to get rid of the box in the freezer)
Snack- 3 handfuls of peanuts

Back on the horse!

Day 16-
I started off the day with my video. It took some MAJOR pushing from myself and the other moms on my board. I had NO motivation. But lookiing at these two pictures sure gives me motivation. I put the outfit from day 1 on and I thought...mehhh...it doesn't look much different but I think I was wrong!~
DAY 1


DAY 16
WOW, looking at those pictures makes me feel really good, I will be eating better today!
Breakfast-Cereal, water
Lunch-1/2 turkey sandwhich, yogurt, carrots and ranch, granola bar for snack
Dinner- (warning: bad) cheeseburger and sweet potatoe fries with one coke and then water. We went to dinner and I can't resist my cheeseburgers! I didn't have any beer though. =)

I have been putting this off...

Well tomorrow will be a new day....this weekend was horrible. Edit: the weekend was GREAT, my eating was horrible. I had pizza, cheeseburgers, chips, ice cream, you name it I had it.....wayyyyy too much beer yesterday which cause me to be a lazy piece of you know what today.

My beverage of choice: for those that care... =)


I didn't do my video yesterday because I take Sundays off. I didn't do it today because I would have thrown up on Jillians face. =( I was supposed to post a 15 day photo today as well but I will be starting fresh with a photo and all tomorrow morning. Sorry to disapoint you! I have disapointed myself. =(

Saturday

I got up and did my video....even though Aunt Flow showed this morning. That was fun! ugh....
Breakfast- the usual
Lunch- getting ready to have pizza. shrug...

I can do it!

Ok...everyday I want to do my video less and less. This morning I really thought about just skipping it. BUT I DIDN'T! I thought of the 2 people that read this blog and I know at least one of them reads it for motivation! =) That is enough for me. If I can help just 1 other person to feel better about themself and get off their booty to work out, then it keeps me motivated. So I went to work and sweated my butt off. Quite literally I am working my butt off, it is always the first thing to go...WTH?!?!
Breakfast- The usual
Lunch-Turkey sandwhich, pudding
Dinner- We are headed out the door to have a big juicy cheeseburger and probably too many beers. Hey...it's Friday. =) Yep, big fat cheeseburger and I didn't feel bad for it. I had sweet potatoes fries to go with and a couple of beers! =)

A new day

Everyday is a new day right?!? We get to start the day fresh and forget how we might of messed it up yesterday. I got up and again, DID NOT want to do the video but I DID! I am more proud of myself for sticking to that than I am about anything. I am kind of a lazy person...I said it. But I feel soooooo good after I finish for the day. Today was day 11! 4 more days and I have to put up another picture. I sure hope I will be able to tell a difference!
Breakfast- can you guess.... Life cereal, coffee, too much creamer
Lunch-Turkey sandwhich, 3 sugar cookies (they were thin like crackers) and a glass of coke....all compliments of my dear friend Lisa. =)
I came home and had a pudding and a handful of chips...
Dinner-I did good. I had 1/2 a chx brst, 1cup corn, 1 cup brown rice, with a little cheese and A1. Yum! Kept me nice and full for the rest of the night.

I'm Slipping

I'm slipping on this eating better thing. This is usually how it happens, I do so well for a week or so and then I fall off the band wagon. I really really didn't want to do my video today but I DID!!! Day 10! I put my pants on(from day 1) and I didn't really notice any difference....even though I can see a change in my arms and legs and I "thought" my stomach. =(
Breakfast-Life cereal skim milk, large coffee...too much creamer
Snack-I am sooooo hungry it's ridiculous! I had a FULL turkey sandwhich at 10 am and a granola bar!
Lunch-at 3pm: polish sausage on a bun with mustard
Dinner-small chicken breast with left over rigitoni
I have had 2 pudding cups today too. I have really really really wanted to go get ice cream or cookies or cake or something, so I have had pudding instead. UGH.... I HATE this daily struggle!
WOW: I had a lot of meat today!

It's a beautiful life

I am already feeling so much better! I didn't want to do the video today because I am lazy but I pushed myself and I did it! Day 9! Level 2 is still kicking my booty!
Breakfast- Cinnamon Life cereal with skim, Large coffee with you guessed it...too much creamer
Lunch- Half turkey sandwhich, carrots with ranch, yogurt, and granola bar
Snack- 6 handfuls of mini teddy grams (roughly 200 cals)
Dinner- Ok so dinner wasn't so great...we had chips-lots of them, and I had 1.5 polish sausages on buns. I was really full afterwards and kicking myself for the second half. ugh

Day 8

I can't believe it, I have stuck to a workout routine for a WHOLE week! I took one day off in that time and I think that is ok!
I got up this morning and did Level 2 again, it kicked my ass just as it did on Saturday! I am feeling so good though, arms are toner, tummy is smaller, and I just feel better about myself.
Brekfast- Oatmeal with brown sugar and walnuts, diet coke
Snack-small apple with 2tsp natural pbutter
Lunch-1/2 turkey sandwhich, carrots with ranch, granola bar, 1/2 single serving of yogurt
Snack- I was super hungry and had a bowl of life cereal(cinnamon)
Dinner-1 cup baked ziti, 1 cup green beans, 1/2 chx breast
Dessert- 100 cal pudding, yum!

Mother's Day

Day 7- I skipped the Shred today, 1.to have a day off 2.to let my sore ankle heal a little, I will get back to it tomorrow!
This morning my wonderful husband made me homemade donuts for breakfast with a glass of milk! Not the healtiest but it sure was "sweet" =)
Lunch-even worse I had three pieces of pizza. We are working out in the yard....
Dinner- Well today was shot....we had ice cream before dinner and then we had chicken nachos for dinner...go ahead and judge, it was a horrible eating day. But the best Mother's Day yet!
Back to the grind tomorrow!

my ankle!

Oh my gosh!!!! I got up this morning and knew that I needed to really pump up the workout after last nights dinner fiasco(fun with the friends, bad eating). So I did level 2 of the shred.... Holy moly hard! I liked it though, I felt so good.... Until I got out of the shower and was putting my jeans on. I twisted my ankle and heard 3 loud cracks! I laid on the ground and cried for a good 5 mins. I cried because it hurt but also because I want to keep up my workout and I seriously thought it was broken. It's not but is still throbbing two hours later. :(
Breakfast- large coffee too much cream
Lunch- half turkey sandwhich, granola bar
Dinner-YUMMY! Ryan grilled some chicken and we made grilled chx ceaser salads! 1/2 a chicken, bowel full of lettuce, ceaser dressing, 1 piece of bread as croutons, 1piece of bread with mozz cheese.
Snack-1/2 bag of popcorn

TGIF

I love Fridays, it means that the hubby is going to be home for two days and it means that the girl and I have swimming together! I really look forward to Fridays!
Day 5-
Breakfast-frosted mini wheats, skim milk, large coffee with tooo much creamer. It happens!
Lunch- mcchicken from McD, granola bar, carrots with ranch
Dinner- here's where things get out of control: we went to friends house for dinner... So.... I had wayyyy too many pretzels with ranch, cheeseburger with bun, potato wedges, pasta salad, 2 reeses no make bars (yum) and 4 beers! Whew I feel gross just writing it all out!
I did the shred though before we went to swim lessons!

Day 4

Day 4 of the shred and it was slightly easier but not easy by ANY means. My legs are still burning which I assume is a good thing. =) I also went for a mile and a half walk with my neighbor today. So that has to count for something, right?!?
Breakfast- life cereal, skim milk, large coffee with too much creamer ( I dont see getting rid of this treat any time soon)
Lunch-1/2 turkey sandwhich with the usual-turkey, cheese, mustard, pickle...lite st. cheese, yogurt, carrots and ranch, diet coke, and a 100 calorie ice cream cone from Mickey D's. I walked it all off at the park. =)
Dinner-1/2 cup of brown rice, 4 small pieces of thinly sliced sirloin tip, and a 1/2 cup of mixed veggies, glass of skim milk
Ok OK this blog saved me from getting the 3 cookies for a dollar at McD last night but by 9 I was sooooo hungry I could of eaten my arm so...I had a big piece of cornbread. =( Oh yeah I had a granola bar with lunch too.

My legs are on Fire!

Day 3 of the Shred
I woke up soooo sore today. But I got up and I did the video and I thought my legs were literally on fire. WOW! Feels good though!
Breakfast- life cereal, skim milk, small coffee-too much cream
Snack-granola bar and Diet Coke
Lunch-Power Bar, 12 oz slushie(oops), 3 pieces of turkey, 1 slice of cheeder cheese, 8 carrots and ranch
Snack-handful of Ella's puffs, 1/2 bag of popcorn
Dinner- I was bad...we had free KFC coupons, I was going to get corn and green beans as my side but they wouldn't let me choose my side, so I had mashed potatoes, 2 pieces of GRILLED chicken, 1.5 biscuits with no butter, and I shared a Mt. Dew with Ry. I know, I know, not the best dinner. I will do better tomorrow.
I feel a little disapointed with today. I was so hungry and I snacked a lot. I need to get healthier things to snack on.

I'm Losing IT!

The fat that is! I have started this blog to journal my weight loss/challenges! I have ALWAYS struggled with my weight, pretty much every single day of my life....now that I had a baby and gained 50 pounds while doing so I really need to work at feeling better about myself.

Soo....here is where I begin.

The Shred...it is all the hype on my Mommy board. We even have a daily check in. I got it in the mail yesterday and couldn't wait to start. It is a 30 day program with 3 levels. It is fairly "simple" moves but it Kicks your ASS! It feels really good to work like that again! Soo....I bought a pair of pants yesterday that I can button but with a pretty nasty muffin top, they hang in my closet to remind me that is what I am working for. I can't believe I am doing this but here is a very unflattering picture of my "trouble" area...the mid section. I will post another picture on day 15 and then again on day 30.

I can't believe I just put that on the internet, but I am hoping it will make me stick with my new plan.
No weight loss blog is complete without a food portion:
Tuesday May 5:
Breakfast- Cinnamon Life cereal with skim milk, Large iced coffee with wayyyy too much creamer
Lunch-1/2 turkey sandwhich-3 pieces of turkey=30cal, 1 piece of chedder cheese=60cal, mustard=0cal...8 carrots(would of been 10 but Ryan Joe ate 2) with ranch....Boston Creme Pie yogurt=110cal...water
Snack-3/4 bag of popcorn
Dinner-small porkchop with A1, a bite of stuffing, large piece of cornbread, mixed veggies...vanilla pudding and a glass of milk....1 beer after baby went to bed..
Not a horrible 1st day
Video- Level 1, day 2, still kicked my butt but didn't hurt as bad as yesterday, improvement already...this is good!